Vintage Market Days Of North Central Colorado & GIVEAWAY

Who loves vintage markets?!? I am so excited about this upcoming event!!  My husband and I went last year and really found some amazing treasures.  This event is coming up on October 13-15th in Estes Park.

This is such a fun market. Not only are there amazing vendors, food and treasures it’s located in a beautiful setting! We really enjoyed the ride up to Estes Park, it’s a beautiful time of year to do this drive!

Make sure to check out their  Facebook  page.  They are also have amazing non-profit organization they are working with, The Colorado Foundation on Conductive Education and they help children with motor disabilities such as cerebral palsy. 

They have been gracious enough to allow me to giveaway 2 free early entry tickets. To enter go to my facebook page and I will have information there for the GIVEAWAY!

I wanted to share some of out finds that we got last time! vintage 3

We found the awesome table legs hanging on the wall, and we also got the vintage suitcases we made into shelving!

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I was able to purchase this vintage wooden ironing board for $25!!


We were able to get this awesome iron gate as well.

These are just a few of the things I picked up!  Can’t wait to go see what I find this time!

Some Days it Hurts…Most Days it Hurts

I felt like I had this whole thing figured out.  I knew what I signed up for, I knew how hard this would feel.  I thought I could do it, and most days I can, yesterday I couldn’t.  My heart felt like it was in a million pieces.


I did one of the hardest things I’ve ever done, I walked away from a screaming child who was calling me with outstretched arms as a caseworker took him back for a visit.  I waited until I was in the car and then cried like a baby.  I went back an hour later to find that same child who seemed a little different.  He was back to himself by the time we had a nap, but my heart was still hurting even though this little one seemed to feel better.


Yesterday I cried because I feel like this system is fighting for the wrong side, I cried because I feel like the people who are supposed to be on the child’s side are not, I cried because I fear I am going to lose these babies just like I lost the six I carried, I cried because I feel like God has abandoned me to handle this, I feel hurt that I wasn’t able to have my own children so I wouldn’t have to walk this path,  I cried because I love these children.  Yesterday was a HARD day, a day I told my husband I can’t do this, a day I thought I’ll just never be a mother.  


Well I got a good night sleep, a sweet “morning” when I went in to get the littles up, a big hug, kiss and a “love you”.  Those things melt my heart and help me get through this. In the light of morning, I know God is here, He usually feels far when He is working.  I know the system is broken and not fighting for the children, but in the light of day I know I will fight for them! I still fear the situations these children might return to. I don’t know if I’ll ever be a mother.  I don’t know if I can keep doing this but, I will try hard today to give these children the things they need for the time I have them.  


I know that I only have a little time with these children, but they will forever be mine.


Foster Care is HARD!